I have failed at least 8 times in the last 2 days, 50 times in the last few months, and maybe that's kind of a good thing. I can't remember the last time I did something I didn't know how to do (screenprinting in college?) and it's humbling and weirdly fun to be bad at something.
I was beginning one of the biggest adventures of my life, and I realized I didn't have any keys to my trailer. Or internet for work. Or running lights. What? Half a day of problem solving later, and half a day of driving, I roll in to my very first RV park in the dark with no clue what I'm doing, but how hard can it be? There's a pull-through available, and I park and unhitch with relative ease. Inside the trailer, on the other hand, is shambles. Stuff is strewn everywhere, my fridge and upper cabinets are open, and food and art supplies drift in a deluge worthy of Pollock. After sorting carrots and colored pencils back into a semblance of order, I attempt to hook up. Electric doesn't come on, and my sink is leaking- in 5 places. I put a bucket under the sink, pour a tumbler of wine and raise the white flag from bed.
Did I mention I have a brand new dog? I had this brilliant idea to distract myself from the stress of learning RVing and sales by adopting a 50 lb black lab. With no electric, no heat- and I end up sleeping with said 50 lb retriever in my twin-sized bed to keep her from freezing, at least until 6:30 am when I'm licked awake to a nice rim of ice in the dog bowl and a few new cracked pipes. No shower, no power for coffee. It can only go up from here, right?
(Update) No it didn't quite get better- I was soundly rejected by 2 RV park managers, and my bank account had tumbleweeds in it- But! I did finally get power, and I did finally accomplish a "sale" today- I got the owner of my current RV park on the site. My two other leads put me off until "tomorrow"...
I guess all this getting-up-too-early and having-to-fix-things is exactly what I needed- my dog is making me exercise, (I ran this morning!) this job is making me put myself out there, and the trailer is testing my mechanical moxie. Nothing like a good failure or 6 to get you to lose weight, win friends and become unimaginably wealthy. Well, that's the plan anyway.